My situation is lonely and hard. I miss Scott so much. I want to hold him again.
Today I did something I'm not proud of. I facebook stalked him. After a decade, after him refusing contact, I finally looked at his page.
He's in a relationship.
So I clicked on her page.
She's not in a relationship.
Cue the bawling my eyes out.
I don't have a right to bother him. I broke it off, I left him.
I'd take it all back this second if I could.
Maybe the settings are screwy. Maybe I can't see her relationship status because I don't know her.
She better love him. He deserves so much love it's not even funny. I'm over here at the end of my rope...hating myself for my past choices...
Life isn't fair, kids.